Nothing Left To Lose

There's a
part of me,
inside
my heart,
that wants
all or nothing.

it believes
that it loves
him so
much,
and the love is
not returned, therefore...

there is nothing left to lose.

it is this part that says hurtful things,
that boils up my blood and causes
mean thoughts and intentions and words to
pour out,like steam
from a pressure cooker...

and it always
lets me know the
truth:
that I am a horrible
friend that should
stay alone.