Exception Not The Rule

He says
he doesn't
treat me differently,

I'm treated the
same as other
female friends
of his...

 finally realized
the root of my
frustration at this
lies not in
believing
I'm treateted differently..

but in wanting to
be treated
differently,
to not just be another
friend
to him,
but to be more,
to be special

instead of the rule,
I long
to be the exception.

I long to
be the one,
the one that he
gives a chance
to,
but I wont be.

I will always be the rule.
there is nothing
special in me
to be the exception.