But I Can't

I want to

let myself

like you,

 

but I can't.

 

I want to

not  fight

it,

just let it go

and see what happens,

 

but I can't.

 

I want to

let myself believe

that this

time,

it will be different,

 

but I can't.

 

I want to

let myself get

to know you better,

 

but I can't.

 

I want to

let mysef  want to

spend time with

you,

 

but I can't.

 

I can't,

because to

you,

it wont matter.

 

I can't,

because I've learned

that it is never enough

and neither am I.

 

I can't,

because I know the

ending if I don't.

 

if I don't,

the ending will

be a no,

and tears

and pain.

 

so I can't.