I Wish

others

dream of

turning lead

to gold,

i dream

of turning

emotions

into words...

 

I  wish

I had the

words

to write

how I feel...

 

I wish I

knew how to

turn emotions

into words...

 

I wish

I could

say

how I feel

towards him,

be able to explain

wanting to care yet not

wanting to care...

 

be able to explain

liking

you and yet

not letting

myself like

you...

 

I wish

I had the

dream-like

strength of

not caring

that the

fires of heartache

will burn me

once more...

 

I wish

I could believe

that this time,

it will end

up differently...

 

I wish

I had

boyfriend stories

to tell...

 

I wish I

was the kind

of girl

to whom

liking a

guy was not

every time,

always

painful...

 

 

I wish I

could free

my feelings

and like you,

and see where it goes,

if anywhere...

 

but wishing

does not

change reality...

 

and I cannot...

 

so my feelings,

will remain un-free,

so I can stay smiling...