In The Place

In the place

you

once were...

 

the place you

went to

once...

 

once,

not so long ago

but still in the past...

 

in the place

you once

were...

 

the place

you went to

on purpose

but just to pass though...

 

the place

you loved,

the place that brought

a smile to

your face and heart...

 

in this place..

 

there are now

others,

others who never knew

you were

there...

 

others,

who will

never know

you were there...

 

never know

you loved it,

and love it still..

 

the walked where you

walked..

 

the see what you saw...

 

they sit where you sat...

 

they do

what you did...

 

and still,

they never

know you were there...

 

never know you

loved it...

 

never know

you...

 

and then they leave,

and others follow them,

and it all begins again...

 

 

Frozen In The Present

through the middle of the

city...

 

there runs

a river...

 

it is frozen

now..

 

frozen

from the

bitter

cold

 that reigns

the outside...

 

the river

is stuck in time...

 

frozen in time...

 

a clear visual

to the past...

 

the past

in the frozen...

 

the river...

 

frozen in time,

in the moment,

in the past...

 

the past

frozen in the present...

 

a frozen

real statement

to the past...

 

 

Part Of My Heart

I've loved

you for years,

had you in my

life for years...

 

 now

 I am far

from you...

 

 

i miss

stroking

you gently,

as I get lost

in your words..

 

I miss having

you all around

me,

knowing that

you are

there,

within easy

reach...

 

I miss your

smell,

that beautiful

scent that is

uniquely

you...

 

I miss

your comfort,

the way

you could

always help

me forget

my problems

and worries

and pains,

made it all more

 tolerable...

 

being

so far away,

from you is

hard...

 

it makes me

realize

what i have known

for years...

 

that having

you in my life

is important

to me...

 

it makes me

realize

that having

 your words

on a screen in front

of me...

 

while

better

than not having

you at all...

 

is a poor susbtitute

for not

having you...

 

each time

I see your words

on the screen...

 

I wish I

had you

instead...

 

You are part

of who I am,

part of my heart...

 

 

But I Can't

I want to

let myself

like you,

 

but I can't.

 

I want to

not  fight

it,

just let it go

and see what happens,

 

but I can't.

 

I want to

let myself believe

that this

time,

it will be different,

 

but I can't.

 

I want to

let myself get

to know you better,

 

but I can't.

 

I want to

let mysef  want to

spend time with

you,

 

but I can't.

 

I can't,

because to

you,

it wont matter.

 

I can't,

because I've learned

that it is never enough

and neither am I.

 

I can't,

because I know the

ending if I don't.

 

if I don't,

the ending will

be a no,

and tears

and pain.

 

so I can't.

I Wish

others

dream of

turning lead

to gold,

i dream

of turning

emotions

into words...

 

I  wish

I had the

words

to write

how I feel...

 

I wish I

knew how to

turn emotions

into words...

 

I wish

I could

say

how I feel

towards him,

be able to explain

wanting to care yet not

wanting to care...

 

be able to explain

liking

you and yet

not letting

myself like

you...

 

I wish

I had the

dream-like

strength of

not caring

that the

fires of heartache

will burn me

once more...

 

I wish

I could believe

that this time,

it will end

up differently...

 

I wish

I had

boyfriend stories

to tell...

 

I wish I

was the kind

of girl

to whom

liking a

guy was not

every time,

always

painful...

 

 

I wish I

could free

my feelings

and like you,

and see where it goes,

if anywhere...

 

but wishing

does not

change reality...

 

and I cannot...

 

so my feelings,

will remain un-free,

so I can stay smiling...