Look at this Hand

They
look at me,

and see me
a certain way,

they
see me as prey,

they see
me as easy,

they see me as
weak,

they do not
see me as a threat,

and they are right,
I am not a threat.

unless
they make me into one.

because
what they see
me as,

the weaknesses
they want
to help me overcome,

cause them to underestimate me,

look at this hand
not this hand,

so much
time fixing the
weaknesses

they do not always
see the strength,

the beauty
deep inside,

they see
an innocent kitty
but the kitty

can easily become a wildcat

that
will come out when
forced  and
fight to the death.

pay no attention to
the girl
behind the curtain...


look at this hand...

Rooms of my Soul

You stare
into windows
to my soul,

and believe you
see all

yet...

what you
see through
a window is
not the entire house,

it is merely
one room,


you stare into
the windows of
my soul,
and do not realize
it is only one
part of me
which you see,

there are many other
rooms of my
soul,

rooms which
make up who
I am,

rooms
which define me,

rooms which control
my actions,


rooms which
are beautiful,
and no part
need be changed...

What I Want

I want you
To
Want to be with me...

I want you
To hug me...

I want to
Feel your arms
Around me....

I want you
To call me darling...

I want so
Much to
Spend time with you...

To get to know you...

Have you get to know me...

Yet, I know I'm
Not your type girl.

I don't smoke.
I'm not into partying,

I don't wear make up
Or sexy clothes


I don't dance.

I'm a dorky girl
Who loves to write.

Who loves being outdoors at night,
Watching the moon and th starts and nature .

Who loves books
And riding bikes.

Who knows she is beautiful, yet
Does not always feel it.

But I still want to spend time
With you.

So much.

I Want A Guy Who

I want a guy
who encourages me...

I want a guy
who helps
me to help myself...

I want a guy
who is
content simply
to be with me,
never mind the circumstances....

I want a guy
who smiles a
caring smile at me...

I want a guy
who makes me laugh....

I want a guy
who does not aim to
hurt my feelings,
but is not afraid to...

I want a guy
who
loves to hug
me and hold me in
his arms...

I want a guy
who loves
holding my hand...

I want a guy
who does
not lead
me to do something
against my will...

I want a guy
who
sees and believes in
my inner strength....

I want a guy
who would take
me fishing....

I want a guy
who would
encourage me in
my physical working out...

I want a guy
who loves my
faith...

I want a guy
that wants to
be the kind
of guy I deserve
and he strives towards it...

I want a guy
who loves
the smell of the outdoors
at night...

I want a guy
who
cares about me,
not just about us.

Two

Torn between
two...

my heart
years for
both...

both beautiful
in their own
way...

both offering
a new
life....

I can
see myself
with both....

I love
them both...

my mind
and my heart
both go back
and forth...

unable to decide,
I am left
confused
and frustrated....

which should
I choose?

which is the
one for me?

which one
would be best for me?

which one
would I be the
one for?


how do
you choose
between two...

when your heart is
with both?

when you
like
them both?

I Am The Girl

I am
the girl
who has never
gone on a date,
because guys do
not want to date her...

I am
the girl
who has spent
a lifetime
making herself
be able to see
she is beautiful...


I am
the girl
who has never
been kissed...

I am
the girl
who has
never gotten
drunk,
or close to drunk...

I am
the girl
that loves reading...

I am
the girl
who loves the smell
of books...

I am
the girl
who
loves to write,
who loves creating worlds and people
from her imagination...

I am
the girl
who has never had
a milkshake....

I am
the girl
who wants her first boyfriend
to feed her
her first strawberry
because it's romatic
and cute...

I am
the girl
who feels
beautiful,
sexy,
confident,
and strong
when she is on  a bike,
feeling the wind on her
face...

I am
the girl
who quietly
loves God and Jesus...

I am
the girl
that most often
is not thought of
or about...

I am
the girl
whose feelings
you might hurt,
and she will never
hurt yours back...

I am
the girl
who loves
the journey
more than the
destination...

I am
the girl
who is
trying with
all her power and
strength,
to not like you...

I am
the girl
that dreams about
you at night...

I am
the girl
who wants
a relationship
with a guy I care about,
who cares about me...

I am
the girl
you never truly
see...

I am
the girl
with 7 tattoos...

I am
the girl
who is proud
of all she is.

My Heart

My heart
wants what it
wants,
and I have
no say...


it yearns,
it dreams
it desires...

over things
and people
I wish it did not...

My
heart is the
wildest
thing about me...

It is
uncontrollable,
it is untamed
and beyond
control...


I cannot control
or tame it...

I cannot
steer
it away
from this course...

All I can do...

is pray that at the end,
He will be there for me,
as He always is,
to heal my broken heart.